I’d love to explore other areas of France

When I was there, apart from trips into Paris, I was staying in a little village about half an hour from Paris called Nozay. Now that was something that you don’t just get back home like a big city. Cobbled streets in certain parts, half the buildings are probably as old or older than my country, there’s the little town square where everything is from the mayor’s office to the bakery to the pub and tobacconist lol. I’d love to visit the French countryside and little villages and stuff again a lot more than I’d like to see a big city again.

Was the Reddit version of this community like this with people coming in to ‘both sides’ the conversation? I don’t think it was like this. Lemmy has a real problem with people just not caring about what the community is before they come in to drop their hot their hot takes. I’ve even seen people go into [email protected] to complain about people posting about Reddit. I mean, come on.

As for that 18% of violent crimes being committed by women stat, that still means 82% of the perpetrators were men, so that’s hardly the pwn it was made out to be. It’s grasping at straws to keep ignoring that there’s any problem.

I’ll also just leave this here:

Yeah, I think it’s important to keep an eye on the US but the 24 hour news and outrage cycle built around it is just too much. I feel like in most other countries, they vote every 4 or 5 years and those occasions are the only times that politicians are clogging up the news daily, and we mostly go on with our lives in between. But the US side of it just never fkn stops. Trump has made it especially tiresome because it’s been like 10 years straight of his particular clown show now. Every day.

Someone that thinks the world revolves around them detected.

Phil Anselmo, singer of Pantera, in 2016:

And seeing that made me feel stupid for never picking up on the white power undertones in their music before. Honestly it’s made me feel something not good about a lot of metal bands in general since, considering that this very year, Metallica, Slayer and Pantera were still happily touring alongside each other as opening acts for Black Sabbath’s 20th final tour.

I can’t, personally. Same with any art. Kanye can get fucked. Manson can get fucked. Pantera can get fucked. Neil Gaiman can get fucked.

Some are harder to walk away from than others though. Sandman and Death were two of the first comic book characters that I ever got to read complete stories of and not just random back issues. But I’ll never be able to look at another Gaiman creation again without thinking about everything.

Others are easier to leave behind. Bands like Pantera always came across as macho dickheads that beat up kids for listening to heavy metal back in school anyway. So I feel nothing saying nazi metalheads fuck off

ITT: people acting like absolute smug assholes to anyone who anyone that knows the actual meaning of basic words but not how politicians have twisted that word in select countries. Seriously, anyone that wants to complain about American exceptionalism needs to come to this thread and see these dickheads being snarky and shitting on people for not being intimately familiar with their country’s inner workings. I bet that if I blocked certain people from this thread, my over all Lemmy experience would improve dramatically.

Not just MAGAs, this is on the whole world. I feel like they’ve been talking about and warning about global warming for all 39 years of my life now and most of these clown nations still have vague targets set for 2030, 2040 etc. Head clown Trump might be helping speed it up now but no one has approached this with any particular urgency. Our world leaders are just as effective at fighting climate change as they’ve been fighting misinformation on Twitter and Facebook.

I personally think that if there is a future where we write history books, our current crop of leaders in the world today are going to go down as the absolute worst and most useless sacks of shit, that sold out their people to both fascism and climate change.

These days it’s 100% how I cope because it’s the only place where I can really be me and feel like I actually have friends or at the very least, community. My life in the real world is pretty fucked these days. Mostly due to (un)employment and (lack of) money aka independence and happiness.

I tried going through the public healthcare system to see someone and it was a complete waste of time and made me feel stupid and kinda humiliated for even trying. To explain that would require an essay. So I’d like to get some help but just like anything else that improves one’s life, money money money.

Edit: thanks for the kind words.

I didn’t even know that “non-binary” was a thing until later in life. I knew that I wasn’t like the boys but we wore uniforms and had to have gender specific haircuts and were all seperated and categorised, so it’s not like I was spending all my time with the girls either. I just thought I was a weirdo that hated sports and stupid immature behaviour, who preferred reading fantasy and sci-fi books alone.

And I still didn’t even know that it was a thing for years after school. We’re kinda progressive in my country but probably still at least 10 years behind the first world in that regard. So it’s something that I was just never exposed to. When I finally did sit down and do some homework about it, it felt like I had finally found the picture to use as reference to put the puzzle of my life together, if that makes sense. Before that, I was just building the puzzle blind and not doing a very good job at it. So many things in my life would’ve made more sense or been easier (and I would’ve made better decisions along the way too) if I had only known who I was.

This meme might’ve done the trick for me lol. Still gonna go with 16 though because that’s the age I started sneaking out on weekends to go to the alternative club. I think that if I had a clue back then and wasn’t still in denial, I would’ve done everything better, especially relationships with people.

I’m already banned lol, I just haven’t deleted and closed shop yet. And believe it or not, the comment that got me banned was me shitting on the manosphere, in a subreddit that was literally meant for shitting on misogyny.

Not me but a guy I knew used to have peanut butter and mayonnaise sandwiches. I tried a bite and it honestly wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Not the kind of thing I’d make for myself though.

Haha same. Marmite is one of my hated foods. Not too keen on Bovril either, they both seem the same to me. I think it might be the smell and look of the stuff that puts me off.

I wish Reddit had a way to sort by ‘worst of all time’ but going by my ‘controversial’ comments, it’s either something feminist or it’s for having an opinion in SquaredCircle, the pro wrestling sub.

The SquaredCircle community here is still nice because there’s not a lot of people yet but on Reddit, the biggest sin that you can commit is having an not mainstream opinion about something.

Edit: on a side note, I really should delete my Reddit account now.

Either an egg meme or a neurodivergence meme. Or both in one. Preferably with the word ‘non-binary’ in it so that I’m exposed to that concept young. Then hopefully I’d get a clue and live my best life before that life turns into a dark tunnel where the only light ahead is an oncoming train.

Tempted to send it to my 5 year old self before starting primary school. But I mean, 5 year old me wouldn’t get it. I could send it to 12 year old me before high school but then I’d still get sent to boarding school in a religious conservative shit hole town and probably feel even more trapped there armed with knowledge of who I really am.

So I’m gonna send to my 16 year old self. Second to last year of school when I was already done with this shit and just before starting my adult life.

Feeling oddly down and defeated these last two days. And it seems to be reaching a peak right now. Getting irrational thoughts like feeling like I should just delete Lemmy and everything else and complete the process of giving up on life. Finding some train tracks to lie on somewhere or something. Everything is shit, my life has become a literal figurative dumpster fire with no way out and nothing much to live for, and even escaping into this online double life where I can at least speak and be my truth is feeling like a pointless waste of time right now.

Not expecting anyone to respond, or even read. Not sure why I’m even posting this, maybe letting it out will somehow make me feel better again. I’m just so tired that I feel like going to sleep and never waking up again.

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